My body is trying to tell me something

I'm sick. I'm sure it's because I haven't been sleeping/eating/drinking correctly and the fact that it's been so hot and I've been in and out of air conditioning too much. AC is a funny thing. It's so refreshing, but it gives me wicked headaches and can give me a cold. But I decided yesterday to make the most of this cold and throw away my cigarettes. See, whenever I get a chest cold it's murder to smoke, but I usually do it anyway for a couple days until I can't stand it and finally take a few days off only to start up again. And after many failed attempts at quitting I thought this would be the perfect way to quit. I don't feel like smoking because my lungs hurt and I have alot of cogestion, so I thought I should just throw them away so when I do feel better I won't have any. Good theory, the problem is when I feel better I can always go buy more. But I don't want to anymore. I always thought when I was ready to quit that would be that, but it's not that easy. I don't smoke as much as most smokers do, usually around a half a pack a day, if that, but that doesn't make me immune to the niccotine withdrawl. I think the main thing that's kept me from quitting in the past is that I didn't really want to, but now I do, probably because I'm sick. So we'll see if it sticks this time. No, no, that's not what I should say. This time it WILL stick. I'll make it so. I know it's all under my controll, I don't believe in addiction, it's all about will power. If I smoke another cigarette it's because I chose to, so I just need to choose not to. Easy right? I'll let you know.

"If you wrote me off I'd understand it, cause I've been on some other planet, so come pick me up I've landed" -Ben Folds (who rocked out loud Thur night)